He cried…

daddy 把买给智才的粥交给我后，伤感的继续留在门外，看着楼下。

这次，他好像真的后悔了。

后悔因为他的嗜赌而破坏了他的人生。

我不知道应该说什么，做什么，只是呆呆的站在那里。

please don’t go…

我没有随传随到的朋友。

就算是在伤心的时候。

不是太忙，太累，就是太迟，太突然。

A mix of emotions

Disappointed + Irritated + Upset + Annoyed.

That’s what you made me feel.

The Transition to the Start

To celebrate the end of 2009 and the start of 2010, our gang went to Eileen’s father’s zi char restaurant to eat. FREAKING GOOD XDDDD I ate until very 幸福!! Omg the 麦片虾，the 带子， the or kuan, the chicken, the abalone all SUUUPPPEEERRRRR nice! Yum yum yumssssssss after eating it i immediately wished for a second helping. Somemore Eileen’s mother so nice, everything give us big big portions when we only pay for small one. In the end it came up to 8 per pax only sia, wtf, crazy cheap and value for money. So hua suan until i kept thinking about how hua suan it is hohoho

Then went to esplanade to countdown, saw fireworks, took pictures.

AFTER THE FIRST STROKE OF 2010 STRUCK,  THE NIGHTMARE BEGAN.

I saw the most epic people mountain people sea. SWEAT, LACK OF OXYGEN, AND PURE DISGUST. You’d think that the traffic police would be more efficient at directing both the human and vehicle traffic flow, BUT they were not, at all. At one point in time, they thought it very clever of them to let all the cars pass first before letting us, pedestrians go. WHAT THE FUCK. There is something call INTERVAL sia. That means cars go for 5 minutes, people go for 5 minutes. They made us freaking stand there waiting and waiting in the suffocating crowd, without any instructions whatsoever. GET A LOUD SPEAKER LAH. It was plain rude of them to just expect us to behave like lambs to the slaughter, and behave as they wish. Rubbish.

Hence began the riot. Well Im making it sound more exciting than it really is, because i was so pek chek that i didn’t really enjoy the feel of being in a riot. Kept shouting at the police that people in cars impt but we not impt is it?!? Let us GOOOO!!! According to liying and bk, i led the rest into shouting at them, and they really did let us go. Then after that got one person got baby mah (wtf bring baby come this kind of occasion and still expect VIP treatment), so after seeing me shout, they started to shout got baby lah, move can! LOL. then after that people started saying the same even thought they didn’t have a baby.

After this rubbish start to 2010, more rubbish ensued.

We take train to Tanah Merah liao then found out: “The train to Changi Airport is not in use.” WHUUUT THE…… Stranded! In the end took taxi (midnight surcharge T.T ) to Changi Airport,

where the year finally got better.

YAY love going to changi airport. Miss the going overseas feel!! Just being there and seeing the sign in area made me super excited sia, and my energy came back. hohohohoho stayed over there, talked, shared ghost stories, and had fun together ))))))))))

And went home to SLEEP!

P.S but it was a pity i couldn’t make it to the GB sleepover… i had wanted to go there after the countdown, but after finally arriving at the MRT station, i had no more strength to trudge over to kovan, what more play wii. Regret the opportunity to sleepover with them though, been so long since i’ve done it with them

Wrestling

WRESTLING IS FUCKING STUPID. It is the perfect showcase human stupidity and thirst for violence. ASSHOLES.

Avatar

Avatar was fantastic; the theme of human invasion and intrusion brought out the cruelty, selfishness, consumerism and flaws of human. Who are we to tread on the fellow living beings on Earth? Similarly, we had no right to claim Pandoraland ours, and leech them dry, as we have done to our fellows. Having drained ourselves dry (“dying planet”), we conquer other worlds, other planets. Having unsatiable greed, we lust after their valuable ores. The result: destruction without a care for others. Their culture is not important. Their environment is not important. Their home is not important.

What would wake us all? And once awaken, what can we do? With my limited intelligence i see no way out of our flawed setup. If only there could be a guide for us all: who will continue to wake those who are still adamantly holding on to their dreams.

I am but one of them; there is no way out for me.

向日葵的约定

I saw the female lead of 向日葵的约定 at ION!!!!!! (and is fascinated by her height and beauty) *starstruck* OMGS XD

Inspired by my starstruck-ness, I shall blog about the movie to explain my fascination with her! YAY

The movie was surprisingly nice, and if it were shown in the theatres i would go watch it too. She acted really well, and was totally believable as a retarded 17 year old (btw she is also of this age in real life). Loved her in the movie! OMG if she got facebook fan page i want join. OMG OMG i am feeling as fangirly over her as i am over jeanette aw and fann wong. (who both, btw agn, look like faiiirrrrriiessss!).

BUT hated the ending though, cuz it was a sad one, that didn’t end up with them being tgt. hmph. hate sad endings. The feeling i have towards the ending is similar to the one i had towards the ending of little nyonya (they also freakin’ didn’t get tgt in the end).

ANYWAYY!!!!!! She is so cute, and pretty, and tall! with minimal makeup! or even none i think. omg so cool so cool. She stopped by at starbucks to talk to some friends there, and i was like “eh dawn we go sit near them! omg omg!” and throughout the entire time she was there i kept talking about her, and looking at her. and after she was gone i kept gushing over her too.

XD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TTM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Passion

最近对我的未来有了很多的想法。。。现在想做part time 本来只是纯粹想要赚很多很多的钱， in case get into Uni, then need the money to pay school fees.　可是经过这几天找工作的经验，赫然发觉passion 的重要。如果没有那个热诚，再多的钱也没有意义。虽然这个道理好像很简单，但是还真的是要亲身经历过才能真正的体会得到这个道理。热诚是一个最强的推动力，将可以推动我努力做好工作。现在的我，终于能够体会到为什么有些人会选择把volunteering 当作一份永久，全职的功作，还有那些为了理想而勇敢的闯出现状的人，比如瑞敏。

希望有一天，我也能够有这种勇气。

Huh, i don’t know leh

It’s so stressful trying to find a job!! AND it’s really so strange, and so difficult to adapt to a new environment of ADULTS rather than teenagers like myself. Adults are so scary :S So serious, so business like. Epitome of DAO. Really very very scared.

Hais. Have a job offer, but don’t know whether i should take it up, since honestly, i don’t have any interest whatsoever in it…so abit apprehensive about committing myself to 6 mths there…

But then again, if i don’t take it up, dunno if future job search will yield a better job liao.

AND! dunno if i wanna work retail, or admin. Prefer to be school admin? but no lobang…..

Maybe I should try MOE….

Haha. Okay shall go their website now.

Do I look OLD?!?!

I have wrinkles around my eyes when i smile…..

I have cao-lao-bin…

I look ugly when i laugh…

Solution… hold on to wrinkles, and laugh with mouth closed!